Monday, July 6, 2009

Just keep running

A relative is very sick in hospital. Our lives are paused, watching, waiting at his ups and his downs. Monday already. A week since the phone call. Witnessing the pain and grief, so many thoughts and unanswered questions about life, health, the soul, even love float through my thoughts.

I wake before dawn each morning. Just keep running, I remind myself. Today before the hospital, the day after from the hospital. Do what needs to be done, then run. Mark the passing days by when you last ran.

A burst of endorphin filled joy at the first 20 minute run. Quelled. Too much pain in the faces of those close to me. A small success that seems suddenly insignificant. More questions about hopes, goals and failure.

Food. A shared meal and a laugh. No one should be alone. Do something to help. You can't take away their pain, at least feed their body. Walk, run, take them outside to bathe in the last rays of the sun. A glowing red sunset - a reminder of life as we witness the quiet embrace of death.

Just keep running, today and the day after.


  1. My thoughts are with you - it's never easy when someone close to you in so ill. Focus on them but focus on yourself too (which you're doing with the running). Make sure you're healthy.

    Hang in there.

  2. I'm so sorry- take care of yourself. *hugs* good idea to just keep running.

    - Sagan

  3. Your words are so beautiful, thoughful, sad, encouraging. Thanks for sharing.
    You are in my thoughts,



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