Hold me to this

As I look in the mirror, once more I obsess over every flaw of my body as I have for the last 15 years. Again like so many others, losing weight is at the top of my New Year’s resolutions list. Unfortunately the reflection of my body shows years of neglect – eating too much and exercising too little. But this body is also a reflection of how I have felt about my life and myself up until today.

As I look in that mirror I wonder what life would be like if instead of focussing my energy on how ugly my body looks, if I could use that energy for creating the life I want. What if I could write an exciting story of a positive existence woven with adventure and passion and that story is mine?

I want this year to be the last that begins with body loathing. To make that happen I know I cannot repeat past failures. I now know that maintaining a healthy weight is a lifelong pursuit, not just 3 months of following a weight loss plan. I know that in order to be my ideal weight I need to create a healthy lifestyle and the strength to confront my emotions without succumbing to the comforting embrace of food.

My resolution this year is to take a holistic approach to weight loss focussing on health, self esteem and a positive relationship with food to create a healthy lifestyle. Today, I am taking the first step, down the road to self healing and a healthier life forever.